Welcome to this website. These beautiful words from Julian of Norwich that invite us to behold, say so much to me about how I hope that this website will support our contemplation. I will offer meditations, writings, schola contemplatio and opportunities to enter into the depths of mystical texts, to behold and relate them to our prayer and to our lives. Echoing Julian’s invitation to behold, the author of the Cloud of unknowing, invites to behold with “the mind of good God only,” to be touched by the stirrings of love and drawn into ever fuller oneness with God in love. His words are so full of invitation:

“And then we can do nothing more than behold God and enjoy God,

 with the most wonderful desire to be all one-ed in God and enter 

God’s dwelling, attend to the wooing, enjoy the loving,

and delight in God’s goodness …”

Julian of Norwich, Revelations of Divine Love.

“We need no more, than the mind of good God only, with a reverent stirring of lasting love; so that means you get nothing but God. If you keep whole the stirring of love that you feel by grace in your heart, and do not scatter from your beholding, then the stirring will tell you when you should speak and when you should be still. This stirring of love will govern you discreetly in all your living, and teach you mistily.”

The Cloud of Unknowing Seer, The Discretion of Stirrings.

May we follow these stirrings of love together.

Upcoming Silent Retreats, 2021

Joy Arising in Suffering
Silent Retreat, Santa Casa, Queenscliff, Victoria,September 14-21, 2021
and online

The self-realized person is present in the world as a valley of peace and a fountain of joy. Beatrice Bruteau

In this silent retreat, we will immerse ourselves in art, poetry and music as we enter into the joy that arises in the midst of suffering. We will explore how when we enter into the depths of our wounds, we discover our oneness with the wounded Christ and are drawn into resurrection joy. In this time of enormous world suffering, we will explore how our personal suffering transformed into joy, enables creation to evolve in joy. The insights of Julian of Norwich, Mechthild of Magdeburg, Hadewijch of Brabant, John of the Cross, Teilhard de Chardin, Abhishiktananda, Beatrice Bruteau, and others will guide us. For further information and to register, email:

In your Presence there is fullness of joy. (Psalm 16:1i)

Enjoying God With Women Mystics
Six Day Silent Retreat

Date to be confirmed for 2022
Our Lady of the Sacred Heart, Hartzer Park, Bowral

In this time of transformation, when winter stillness opens into the new life of spring, I invite you to be in silent communion in this six-day retreat and enjoy God.  Held in Love’s silence, we will immerse ourselves in art, poetry and music as we enter into the heart of Love and enjoy the presence of Love’s Trinity, within our own heart and the heart of creation.  The wisdom of the mystics, Julian of Norwich, Gertrude of Helfta, Mechthild of Magdeburg, Clare of Assisi, Hadewijch of Brabant, and Hildegard of Bingen will inspire us as we see how each one teaches us to enjoy God in contemplation.  For further information and to register, please contact Hartzer Park 

“To enjoy you is to be one with God” 

Gertrude of Helfta, Spiritual Exercises, Mystical Union, 132-133.

Recent Teachings

Communion Consciousness in Christian Meditation
WCCM Victoria Conference, Nov. 2020

Margaret Holgate,
I Sleep But My Heart is Awake

These teachings were given as part of the Christian Meditation Conference, on the theme of communion consciousness in Christian Meditation.  The first reflection, I Sleep But My Heart is Awake, explores our desire to be one with God in contemplation. The second reflection, An Awake Heart, focuses on the wisdom knowing of the heart. The third, Communion in the Heart of Hearts, ponders how communion consciousness arises when we connect with each other heart centre to heart centre.  The final reflection, Nurturing Communion Consciousness, looks at how the maranatha energy field helps foster Christ consciousness in the noosphere.  

To access the four teachings, please go to Schola Contemplatio

I also invite you to enjoy contemplation with a selection of paintings from Margaret”s Retrospective, which are available here.

Retreats and Spiritual Direction

I invite you to join me in the shared ground of Love’s silence…


Composed in silence, these writings invite you to enter more deeply into the Word…..

Schola Contemplatio

 These meditations seek to awaken communion consciousness in the light of contemplation…